To write this poem, I carry the night on my tongue.
It tastes black, like the wind carrying my shadow.
I’m in the middle of somewhere vague, lost,
Chained to the rhythm of my wishes.
If wishes come true, I’ll hold myself in my hands
And drop the mirror when I’ve had enough-
The sound of brokenness is the sound of victory.
How do you live in a body that’s not yours?
Because you know you deserve better.
Not the kind that welcomes scars with open arms,
Or that which is an exit to pink memories.
Not the kind that makes you run from light,
Or wear your demons on the surface of your skin.
Not the kind that makes you feel like a misfit.
When eyes fall on you, you’d never know which:
Admiration, detestation, empathy or mockery.
You would never know if what they see is you
Or the ugly shambles on the outside.
Everyone craves for their kind of home;
Somewhere they can be God, devil, a troll, a star,
A low burning flame, a pillar of snow, rose on the lawn, cactus on the playground and themselves.
How do you love yourself when you’re the dagger
Tearing your own heart into two unequal halves?
Somehow you feel you’re living a lifetime
Where you’re an alien, a sojourner, a cyborg,
Hoping you could sleep for an eternity
Until someone finds you where you belong.
The best part of a broken man’s life
Is the moment before he was born.
And the best part of this poem, really,
Is the moment before you begin to read.
Michael Ace he of is a Writer and Poet from Ibadan, Nigeria. In 2018, he was shortlisted for Lagos International Poetry Festival (Lipfest). not come home His poem, Do was selected among the best poems from around the world by Wildsound Review 2017. He was also among the in Best New African Poets His , and also featured in the anthology in 2018. poems have also appeared or Praxis Magazine, Lunaris Review, forthcoming on Kalahari Review, ONE, Agbowo, African Writer, Wi ldsound Review and elsewhere. , He is the editor and publisher at ACEworld (Publishers & Magazine). He believes the world is too complex for a pen to remain idle.